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      CommentAuthorangeleyes
    • CommentTimeOct 23rd 2008
     
    Hello to everyone in this forum.Been following it from time to time ,couldn't be bothered registering though.My name is Kostas or simple 'k' or 'giant haystacks 'as it was lovingly granted by my control tower stuff.I think its only appropriate to fully introduce myself so you know who you talk to as i do know most of you.Why the stupid nick then?Well easy,everyone has to have one,everyone has and i get to pick it myself this time around.
    Anyways, i just wanted to ask if anyone is getting the same feeling i am experiencing lately and how it deals with it ,purely out of curiosity as is not meant to make me feel any better or worse.The feeling is of 'had enough' basically, its not about the money ,slow days or physical tiredness, but more of not feeling the love for it anymore or even the will to cycle just for the sake of it.I realized recently that when i want to call it a day basically i phone up and say so,latest quotation from today ''don't feel like working anymore ,i want to go home' after 3 jobs and about 2 hours after i gave my first call ,no excuse made up ,and most worryingly no effort to make one either.I was probably going to make ok for the rest of the day still no will to go through it even though i have done it literally thousands of times before.The bad thing is i can only imagine how bad it sounds on the other end of the phone line, how unprofessional ,and how unreliable i must look now.Still no care.Surely that's not a good sign.Maybe its just a phase ,maybe its more than that,did you experience that? is it time to move on to something else? sit back and wait till its over if ever?Take a small break (again) or just fuk off for good?
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      CommentAuthorwill
    • CommentTimeOct 23rd 2008
     
    You've just described my life since about 1993.
    • CommentAuthorselimski
    • CommentTimeOct 23rd 2008 edited
     
    Try going for a holiday.And i dont mean a weekend in Brighton or two weeks at home staring at telly.Go somewhere amazing,somewhere you always wanted to go or do something you always wanted to do...I dont know-climb the everest,boat trip down the amazon etc.Two winters ago i was on my way out of this job.Just had enough and was seriously considering my options of finding different job-at that point i just booked two months off and spent a month in Burma and another month in Yunnan in China.I reckon its all about knowing when the point of needing to take that BREAK is coming and TAKING IT.Or missing that point and having to start pulling pints,laying bricks,controlling,selling shares,you-name-it...
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      CommentAuthorwill
    • CommentTimeOct 23rd 2008
     
    "knowing when the point of needing to take a BRAKE is coming and taking it..."
    Bill, did you hear that?
    • CommentAuthorFesterban
    • CommentTimeOct 23rd 2008
     
    Good detecting will, you found the deeply hidden confession within an apparently otherwise well meaning post, well done sir, well done.
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      CommentAuthorangeleyes
    • CommentTimeOct 23rd 2008
     
    Thanks selim.Well funny enough going away -for a month this summer-after working non-stop for the last 3 years i might add, got a lot to do with the problem i have re-adjusting back.For some reason going away rejuvenates me as it does to most ppl but also almost completely destroy my will to come back and pick up were i left from.Never mind going to a place that i really dream about....i don't think even my own family will ever hear from me again.Talk about a 'Breaking point'.Nothing to do with Bill's brake whatsoever.Give the chaps brake back ffs.
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    Oddly enough, Bill's break seemed to be having a crisis of being too, Kostas. So now it's on holiday in India, we can only hope for the best in regards to it's recovery.
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      CommentAuthorangeleyes
    • CommentTimeOct 23rd 2008
     
    we are beyond crisis here.....we need a combra meeting right away.That ''break''? has a such a legendary status by now that i wont be surprised if it ends up being worshiped or become a sort of good luck object to some remote village in India.No much hope of recovery hence there.Something tells me what kind of present this guy is expecting to dominate his birthday party.
    • CommentAuthorJP
    • CommentTimeOct 25th 2008
     
    Kostas of epic Mercury fame?
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      CommentAuthorangeleyes
    • CommentTimeOct 25th 2008 edited
     
    Indeed.Its all too Greek isn't it?.And i might add of epic City Sprint fame as this will be my last week there too.
    • CommentAuthorredrum
    • CommentTimeOct 25th 2008
     
    Try doing something esle for a bit, if you dont like it and you miss riding you can always go back to it.
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      CommentAuthorcoco
    • CommentTimeOct 25th 2008
     
    CHANGE JOBS!!THERE'S LOTS OF THINGS TO DO OUT THERE!I DID IT,NO HARD FEELINGS!JUST A DIFFERENT JOB,NEW THINGS,PEOPLE,SKILLS TO LEARN NOT A BIG DEAL...I AINT GOING BACK.I LOVED IT BUT IM SOO NOT TIRED NOW!...
    OR SIGN ON.
    • CommentAuthorsleepy
    • CommentTimeOct 25th 2008
     
    hey kostas- used to love the yin-yang machine, i've got to say a change is far better than a holiday. i'm much happier since quitting, new job, new life blah blah. can't recomend it enough :smile:
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      CommentAuthorangeleyes
    • CommentTimeOct 25th 2008 edited
     
    Does she shout at you this early in the morning too redrum?Coco there's a key somewhere on the keyboard named CAPS... for some reason.It should be part of your new skills by now girl :wink:On a serious note , thank you for your concern.singing on is for disabled ppl .I am not there.....at least physically yet.
    • CommentAuthorJP
    • CommentTimeNov 2nd 2008
     
    "The feeling is of 'had enough' basically, its not about the money ,slow days or physical tiredness, but more of not feeling the love for it anymore or even the will to cycle just for the sake of it.I realized recently that when i want to call it a day basically i phone up and say so,latest quotation from today ''don't feel like working anymore ,i want to go home' after 3 jobs and about 2 hours after i gave my first call ,no excuse made up ,and most worryingly no effort to make one either"


    I remember the first time I met you K, you were saying the same thing then 6 yrs ago. I now have a greater understanding of where your coming from, and if you mean it this time then good luck man.
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      CommentAuthorangeleyes
    • CommentTimeNov 2nd 2008 edited
     
    You so right.At least back then i was still making an effort to come up with the excuse.If you understand now , does this mean you feeling the same way too?I tell you man, you and probably anyone else who reads this is going to laugh but its true, a couple of months ago while at work with a few good jobs on me i somehow even manage to completely forget to drop one while doing my run and ended up somewhere in tower bridge with a SW1 still in my bag:confused:,-talk about daydreaming- forgetting to actually physically pick up or drop jobs is a worrying sign ,let alone standing at the cue(30+) at Sainsburys at lunch break when you on board with a Mega-urgent or a double rush in other words ,and all you worry about is that you couldn't find the chocolate muffins you usually go for and you contemplating if you should go for a second stop at the next closest and conveniently in your way to your drop Sainsburys (i shouldn't be disclosing that kind of sensitive info in this forum but what the hell).So many examples,i guess you know it all too well.
    • CommentAuthoreggpie
    • CommentTimeNov 3rd 2008
     
    yeah, back in the mercury days you at least had to stay to make guarantee. Being able to quit/go home anytime is really not good for my motivation. But if you handle it right, it can work well for the work/life balance for a while. Youve been saying this as long as Ive known you, and I remember standing around Clifton house a lot a couple of years ago. You were definitely talking about quitting even then. I know exactly where youre coming from. ITs not just winter. I dont know. Im working on Selim's serious holiday plan right now. If thats doesnt work, Ill see you in the line at sainsburys..
    • CommentAuthordubmess
    • CommentTimeNov 3rd 2008
     
    I've been there many, many times over the last 12 years, and I've tried all angles. The most I lasted in any other job was 7 months, and at that stage I was scratching at the walls to get back out on my bike. Nowadays I need to take a small break every 3 months or so and I find that helps me a lot. I make sure to leave my bike at home and just walk around whatever new place I go to.

    Now that I'm trying to get my own company off the ground (in possibly the worst economic timing ever) I don't have time for those breaks, but I'm being faced with so many new challenges that every day is fresh and exciting again, albeit no less frustrating.

    Maybe working in a new city would help for you, you can get very claustrophobic in any big city when you get to know every pothole.

    Everyone is different though, I've seen people stay on the road when they are clearly miserable, and I've see people leave the job who seemed incredibly happy with what they were doing. The one thing I will say is you shouldn't be afraid to leave, your job isn't going anywhere. Times may be tough, but there's always room for an experienced messenger. Take a step back for a few months, try something different, take a course, try getting a bit of perspective from the all-consuming lifestyle being a messenger can suck you in to, and if you find yourself staring longingly out the window in 7 months time even though it's tipping down with rain, maybe things will be a bit clearer.

    Good luck to you whatever you decide to do.

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